Separate Worlds

Or...Doctor Zak and Captain Darron

It's been a while since I've blogged, because it's been a while since I've had anything to blog about. The real world just keeps insisting on my time, and the progress towards moving into the RV has slowed to a glacial pace, until last night.

Going Nowhere

It's been a frustrating few days in my world. There have been a plethora of financial and emotional difficulties presenting themselves, and I'm ashamed to say that my impatience has lately been getting the better of me.

Nothing In Particular

Or...There's Just Not a Lot to Write About

It's amazing how sometimes a day can feel incredibly productive, until the next morning, when you realize that you really haven't gotten anything of consequence done at all.

Backwards Steps

Or...How am I Spending the Time?

I've written before about some of my mental health issues, and today I want to touch on them a little bit more, specifically what they're doing in relation to my plan to buy and live in an RV. Strap in, this is going to be one of those personal blogs.

The Weekend Behind

And the Months Ahead

Over the weekend, I've missed a few blog entries, as I've been out on what I'll call a micro-tour with the Tinderbox Circus Sideshow, and an internet connection is a rare treat. We spent two and a half days on the road in a borrowed SUV, sleeping on other peoples' couches, and by the time we got back yesterday afternoon, some things were definitely put into perspective.

On the Road Again

I Just Can't Wait to Get On the Road Again

This very special edition of The Boondock Life comes to you courtesy of I-77 South through Virginia. That's right, the Tinderbox Circus Sideshow is on the road again, and I'm taking a well needed break from the steering wheel to get some of the day dreaming out of my head and out to you.

Back Into the World

Sadly there won't be much of a post today, as I have a mountain of things to get done that, if I'm honest, I should have had done earlier in the week.  I'll need to focus about them, and day dream about my RV, rather than what I've been doing, which is focusing on the RV, and daydreaming about the real world.

I'll be on the road with the Tinderbox Circus Sideshow all weekend, with lots of time in a car to update the blog.  Hopefully that will make up for my lack of a proper update today. I hope you'll forgive me.

Don't forget to donate to the Indiegogo campaign, and I'll see you all again very soon.

-Z

What Do You Want From Me?

Or...The Whole Reason I'm Writing This Blog

Recently a friend, who I've been nagging about reading this blog, finally read it. Her response was a bit unexpected. The first question she had for me was, "What Do You Want?". I hadn't thought about that. What do I want from having this blog? Why am I pouring my head out on these posts? After pondering for a couple days, I think I finally have an answer, and it's not as simple as I thought.

Questions and Answers

Thanks to the wonderful efforts of my most excellent friends, fellow performers, coworkers, and my relentless posting to Facebook, this blog is getting some overwhelmingly positive attention. That attention however, has illuminated some problems. Apparently, but unsurprisingly, I've not been all too clear on some aspects of the plan to move into an RV, so in today's blog post, I want to address some of those questions.

Having Doubts

Or...The Personal Blog

Today did not start well, and for the first time since going public with my plan to move into an RV, I'm having doubts as to its feasibility. I'm going to let you all in on a little secret, I'm not the most confident of people. That plays, and plays strongly, against what I believe is my very strong and confident nature.  A bear, unsure about his claws.

A Lack of Friction

Or...Is This as Good of an Idea as I Think It Is?

There's something bothering me today. I've had this plan of downsizing my life into an RV for several weeks now, and I've been thinking of little else for several days, and before this blog became public, only a handful of people knew about this idea. Now I've gone public, and asked, no begged, for input. For attention. I've asked for questions to test my resolve, and conversation to shed light on new ideas, and while I have had some truly excellent return on that request, not nearly as much as I'd hoped.

Check and Mate Lists

Since I don't really have anything to write about today, as I'm mostly just waiting for money to come together, either from the Indiegogo campaign, or from my own paychecks, I thought I'd share with you the Checklist. This is, so far, the step by step plan to get from where I am now, to living full time in an RV.  Keep in mind that this is an ever changing plan, adapting to happenstance, and the checklist changes with it.

Crowdfunding

Or...Third Time's a Charm?

For some reason that's not entirely clear to me, even after it's been suggested multiple times, I've been avoiding the idea of using a crowdfunding site to help fund this project.

I've attempted to use sites like Kickstarter and Indiegogo twice before, in order to purchase a tour van for the sideshow, and both attempts failed. This may have soured my attitude towards using them, or perhaps I'm just stubborn and wanted to raise the money myself.

Rocks and Hard Places

Or...The Blog With All the Parentheses

The absolute hardest part of having (what I believe to be) a really good plan, is waiting to get started. Sadly, unless someone wants to throw a bunch of money at me, I don't really yet have a starting point. I have the instruction booklet, but can't afford any of the legos. Rocks and Hard Places.